Blue Spruce

(I recorded this long poem in May, 2011, while sitting under the tree. 

It is Fall writing with a kind of stumbling prelude that leads into the poem.)

You can hear it here: http://bit.ly/luyA8Y      

filled file

foil

few

I have writer’s

critters

block

bust

through.


King pin

kinged

pinned

knocked down,

bad ass

bump

busted

clog

cleared

clear the mania

the run any way

gate to

the fairy tale

muse

opened

opined

oh pine

& sea

by the sea warped

seashore


I was going to be

right about

something for once —

instead I gushed

bad

elongated

haikus

boo boos

on

booboos,

boohoo

the cartoon baby

said

left in the supermarket of desire

by frivolous

parents of the 90's.

Stoned, so sad

mad

no morals

no anything but

let’s narrow the focus

people of our

eaten-up times

eating out on the run

everyone on

the out and outs

with each other

abandoning

everyone else to

not take care

of themselves.

I have been abandoned in

the supermarket of

no words.

I scream in my cart

don’t take me home

until

I grow up.

I am home

I am no longer

a pup.

I am

grown up.

I am free

to be me.

And she

who has never been mentioned

is indeed

here.

She

in this rare moment

is listening

to me

is

putting up

with me,

because

I remind myself

to be good

honest

sharing

caring

putting

the plate down

with the food

the chile & beans

the homemade pizza

the macaroni & cheese

the great big

garden salad

on it.

We don’t eat together

but we eat.

We are waifs

who found each other

a long

time ago.

There is no impediment

to the fortunes

of a rolling optimist

beating up through

the leaves

of the evergreens,

like heart beats

beat to beat

I grow

because I am planted here

and I haven’t

dried out yet.

I wish I was

a blue spruce

looking at me

irrigating (it).

I have nothing to say

being a tree

growing up high

in the sky

between the two

apples trees.

I am now

taller than

you

or me.

Feel free

to dispute

the mind of

a poet:

our songs connect thru

disconnects.

Our lives intersect

through

not touching.

Words

touch

for us.

That is

a forest

in a tree.

In three trees.

The spruce

the Jonathon apple

the tart green

apple

the irrigation

ditch

depends on the Oso (bear) spring

flowing above us.

Nature exists

in spite of

people.

People certainly exist

in spite of

natural

wonders

diminishing

in an all-time

rat-race to oblivion.

Sit

on the new portal

overlooking

the sacred yes I say it

sacred because I make it

out to be

acequia.

Acequia madre

above

connects to our

shared one

here and

connects

to where it

flows on down

below

the other part

of the village.

She and I

flow on

as long as the spring fills

through the reservoir

and runs

through more

and more people

more

& more

wells

more and more

anti-nature

nature.

We will take care of everything

by keeping space

between ourselves.

Space makes

character.

I grow up

to become

the tree I see

the blue spruce now

that was

years ago

a Christmas tree

for our family

of three,

making us

four

after all

I believe in

equality.

Sitting on the

portal

looking out at

what was

the sea.

The paradise

of the fall

the paradise of

the garden upon

garden

the blue spruce

overlooking all,

the blazing, blazing

yellow of fall

does the blue spruce

see.

I see.

I see

says

the fall

the blue spruce

overlooking all.

larry goodell / placitas, new mexico / Oct95

from Beyond TV, poems from 1995

this poem was given to friends as a duende press broadside . . .

The Sentence Level Below

The secondary syllogistic sentence is toward the paragraph; the reader’s attention is not primary syllogistic logic or measure. Sentence for argument, sentence of or increased torque, poly-syllogistic semi/ambiguity of syllogistic movement is limited; movement is following sentences when paragraph organizes movement of the paragraph as a whole, or the total work. The limiting of movement length is a unit which keeps at or very between the preceding and close to structure which altered the level of unity of quantity language, that is, control most often at the sentence level or below.

Elmo Acadork, Ph.D

Yuckie Yuppie

Hippie yuppie 
 yappie yippie 
flippy fluppy 
 flappy flippy 
tippy tuppy
 pappy pippy
fappy fuppie 
 dappy dippy 
puppy yuppie 
 nippy yippie 
pappy huppy 
 gabby gippie 
dippy yuppie 
 nappy yippie 
gappy guppy 
danky dickie 
crackie cruppy 
tacky tippy 
tappy tuppie 
hippy yippie 
gabby yuppie 
 nicky hippy 
yucky yuppie 
 yummy yippie
happy hippy 
 yuckie yuppie 
snappy hippy 
 grumpy yuppie 
flirty hippy
donkey dumpy 
 nappy yumpie 
crappy yuppie 
 iffy huffy 
  snappy yumpie 
jiffy gummy 
jammy gimmie 
flicky flaky 
flammy flunky 
money gummy 
 greedy  yuppie 
gimmie gamey 
 horny hippy 
jogging Ronnie 
 banky yumpy 
me-me more-more-
 money yuppie 
wasted wacko 
 earthy happy 
  hope-y hippy 
slicky tasty
 yucky Wang-y
  uppity yuppie 
wickedy robot 
 dullass monkey 
  jackass yuppie 
icky yuppie 
 happy hippy 
yippie yappy 
yuppie yippie 
yappy yuppie
yucky yuppie.

larry goodell / placitas, new mexico /from january 8th of 1985

thru the full-blown ego-farce of the 80's rolling like an ever dirtier snowball from Reagonoidia
i could only have some fun between spasms of growing hopelessness . . .

(note, as usual in my writing it's for reading aloud so any move from the margin
is a lift of voice . . . )

Bar None

Silva's Saloon in Bernalillo, New Mexico

(after this piece gets bubbling there's just about every bar I can remember

plus a bunch just out of the blue, back in my drinking days . . .

but Silva's Saloon in Bernalillo, New Mexico, has got to be

the greatest "museum bar" in the Southwest, bar none . . . )

Language poetry is the puttering pop-pot fiduciary fireless non-magnet.

Little Scotties fucking each other's gizzards North equals South equals a long way

Hump suck fuck. A dramatic mirror-image explosion of Jean Paul Sartre backwards,

an implosion of Jean Cocteau. We artists are common as puddle muddles

Mud puddles dried up is pottery á la langoiterage Silver Cue. Silver Dollar,

Fred's, Le Chenil Rouge, Casa Blanca, Silva's Saloon, and all the other

history of bars in Bernalillo. Actuality breeds contempt.

Absinthe fakes the hard on farther. Jack the Stripper. Casbah on

the Rio Grande. The Silver seduction in the Gold back room.

More than you bargained for, drunk, in the back of Frank & Phil's.

So many bars have come & gone so many bars have come & gone.

Dope shot up the curtains in the back room. Filling a block of four.

Filling the rental car up with unleaded before returning it at 7 AM.

American speech is an introduction to the trend of the world, which

reflects which reflects. I will create a bar. The Herbert Hoover Lounge, no

the Hoover Vacuum Cleaner Suck Off Spot, the Electrolux Excitement,

the Energetic Electric Indication, Silent Madness, The Magic Johnson Wax Museum,

the Hen's Come Back Bar, the Everything I Ever Wanted Bar, the Non-Bar Bar,

The Hedy Lamar Bar, the Office Bar, Smitty's, the Thunderbird, the

House of Ivy, the House of Malnutrition, the Answering Machine Bar,

The HIV Bar, Gino & Carlo's, El Rey, the Mineshaft, the Horseshoe,

the Green Lantern, Rulon's, the Trojan Horse, the Coyote Double-Yip,

Okies, El Monte's, the Mint, the Roundabout, the Skylark, Claude's,

the Raven, the Star-Buck Pleaser, the Blue Note, Birdland, the Haig,

the Violent Tributary, Peace Bar, Jack's, Rosa's Cantina, the Quarters,

Upside Downside, Max's Kansas City, Fat Chance, the Eclectic Vomitoria.

larry goodell / 7Nov91 / placitas, new mexico / from Fugitive ABC's, poems 1991

R O S W E L L

Roswell with the Plains rolling out into the Eyes

Eyes with the Plains rolling into the Bars

Bars where the Cattle cross into the Heart

Roswell where the Heart rolls out of the Bars

Bars with no Bars but Photographers arms

back from San Francisco talking of Pool

no Table no bars no way to find Home

Home from I am Roswell with the Veins in my Arms

Arms with the Plains rolling out of all Harm

Harm where you know it alive the Baby cries

Roswell with recorders & Plains with their Arms

to be one Born here St Mary's ordinary cross

Roswell with the Music He cleaned it up

Roswell with no name He never saw his town

Roswell never saw the town named from his name

Plains arms roll never knowing where they came from

Philanthropy an old thing naming from the Bars

no Bars only Home to some

trying to name an artist

who's really good at home in his voice

reading the names as they show up in the Plains

Home & Home again a name in the Bars

of Albuquerque Algodones Placitas home

Roswell with the name nobody calls it a home

Home it was & ever will be & be & be

Roswell with the name where

the flat ness rolls out

aflame in the ears to die

Roswell old home a poet born to hear what

he hears her sitting home away in the tears

he left here to come back a dozen years of solitude

a chronicle of Paradise in trees they left to die

Artesian Roswell making making

empty clothes lines

I give you Silk Stockings for Yr Empty Bars

I give you back Roswell with its empty Death Wish

I give you back what you brot me Lines with a Stick

a Bat out of Carlsbad a Bag of loose Cotton

a reaping raping raiding woman cursing with the Dry Plains

I give you a Letter the Letter Z

Z for Zones Z for Cattle Brands unknown

Z for my Home never found never wandering

A Ghost of the Lovely Host who ate his Solid Wafer

& blessed the Town to turn it back where its Hope was found once

when you let the newly found Artesian wells spill out their

Giant wealth to give it in again & take the People Hatred

Hiding in DeBremond Stadium where the Football games

pounded it in turn it in the Spring River come back

flowing flowing in all the ways of fuck again.

larry goodell

(written on envelope at Wendell Ott’s

Sunday, 7Apr74 in Roswell, New Mexico)

the invite for the opening of Greg Tucker's show

which included me reading this and other poems and Tom Guralnick, jazz artist, performing, August 1980, Albuquerque, New Mexico . . .

GREG TUCKER: "IT'S A RIOT"

this appeared in Artspace Magazine, late 1980, in conjunction with Greg Tucker's show of post-prison riot drawings . . . a remarkable show.

Greg Tucker's show at the Meridian dares to show what it's like to be a man, the myth that we all are afraid to face. All of us men. That opening out of hate and love, that is peculiarly masculine, because it is fierce, brutal, and escapes all risks.

It is a show of tattooed men, what you do with your body in prison when there's nothing else to do. Transferred, in simple, bold thrust of minimum color, on small squares of paper. You move from paper to paper, with these images on them. A Christ "Born to Lose," "Fix," "Arbol de Juzgar," etc. And then the images of the penitentiary riot, the messages of directed violence on the walls, kill this guy or that guy, cut off that guy's prick—a show of such manageable drawings, manageable because the drawings aren't that big and the terror diminishes as you walk away, and yet it's not terror. Some drawings are of masks, or bodies without heads, or just a scrawl like a cross-out, on the square of paper, or numbers through 9, backwards.

It is the rage of being independently male, in a body trapped in prison where the puberty rite of the tough edge you only show, comes bursting out. That puberty rite of the tough edge only showing, as you walk along or do anything, the boy-man learns in Junior High.

Greg Tucker shows these images of that pushed-out toughness, the lump-in-the-throat terror that we guys have to go through, either do or duck, shit or get off the pot, kill or die—or escape. The escape of the trapped, no matter what they were or who they were, they are, there, climbing the walls to get out.

For art to show this is remarkable—and remain art. It isn't art overridden by statement. I think it is Greg Tucker's sensibility of the pen riot, tattoos, graffiti caught in the process of his own drawing. And the energy continues from them as you look at them. It isn't the stupid knife-edge painless hurt of so many contemporary popular movies, that just make you hurt if you can do that anymore, but the small squares of drawings you enter like entering a cell, to see what goes on in that prisoner's mind or body. And more than that, it is an expression of what all men have to face, suffering all the while through it, a trap door on the way to manhood that can trap you and never let you out. If you get trapped, it's the rigamarole of proving your toughness round and round, egged on by "buddies" that it's okay, until you believe the game and play it till you kill or maim or get back at, as if that would end it, and it never does.

It's a rotten game that few women know, that is at the core of the independent male, who travels through it until some kinder register of what life can be, begins to settle in. These drawings are extremes of what is as common as the human male, a stage of his development, or trapped in itself, the horror of everything gone wrong and every act can only be the further extension of wrong, wrong into wrong, a mass wipe-out.

But it's only drawing, it's only writing. Drawing, writing on the wall.

—Larry Goodell
Greg Tucker, drawings. 1980
published in Artspace Magazine, Albuquerque, New Mexico

The Circumscribed Generation (or) Love Song for Gino, Ken, Kell, Ann, etc.

                                                            alive in the wail

                                                  tangents given

                                                                        FUCK YR CIRCLE

                  (circle back to me)

                   con FURSHUN fessin I buv oo

                                                                                    pookyppopookee

                                            STOPPER

                                                                        & HE CDNT

                                     STOPPER

                                 (plug out the wrench)

                                                WENCH

                        !

                                    oldfashioned syndrome of loneliness

                              a bugger up the ass

                                                            Old

                 fortune

                        card up the

                                                                                     HEARING AID  ?

                                                             LISTEN TO MY QUESTION

                                                BLATWORT

                                                                     No

                                     Re

                                                Sent

                        Ment

                                       Only

                                                             o lover o o o

                 MEASLES

                                             COO/COO

                                                               AHI-AHI

                                                (Clear Yr Throat

                                    Drambuie

                                                    Cough Up Yr Honey

                        & Git DRUNK

                                                                        hi?

                                                                        hi?

                                                                        hi?

   I'm a slow phase locked in eternal union

                                                diga me

                                                                           toot?

                        Tootsie Hardon.

                                                                        Direct me

                                                Old-Fashioned Master

                                                                      I

                                                                 shd

                                                                           upstage you all the time  ?

  I'm hummm

ble

                        HERBERT      STOP PICKING YR TEETH

                                                               Mother

                                                            I doit

                                                                                    have

                                                any teeth      youve

                                                               sucked

                                                            them

                                                                            all

                                                                                      off!

                                                                                              PEESQUEEZE! !!!!!

                                                  Yr

                                                            lost

                                                little girl.

                                                              I

                                                            period

                                                                         come

                                                                                    back

                                                   again

                                                   period

                                                                          WE

                                                        I say from the self-circumscribed circle

                                                         old bandit in Wolf drag

                                                                                   WE

                                 codger drunk-dodger lickety split tap dancer

                                                                     & herbert fondler

                                                                                                          SINS-INSURED

                                                                                                  WE

                                                                                                           dig me

                                                                                    hard

                                                                                                     WE

                                                                                                  COME

                                                                                                           BACK

                                                     (ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-)

                                                                                         WE

                                                                              (dusty fingertips)

                                                                                              WE

                                                                                       COME

                                                                                                   BACK

                                                                                  TO

                                                                                                          LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!

larry goodell / placitas, new Mexico / 18 April 1968

Three, for Judy Grahn, Ann Quin, Drum Hadley

In the Chamber of the Goddess to Nowhere

In the chamber of the Goddess to Nowhere

I was taught 3 things:

Don’t underestimate your ability to breathe.

It is not necessary for men to stamp out the earth.

You don’t have to do everything you want to do.

But you already know these things, she said,

when you have nowhere else to go and nothing makes sense

you can always come to me, said the Goddess of Nowhere.

/larry goodell / placitas, nm


Queenland

Imagination is smarter than your god

goddesses of the goddess of god, my secret benefactress
heritage line of feminine soul, sole creator of the
energy of man
how embarrassing to admit it for the masculine race
the race to dominance won & then possibly lost.
A lost face in the process of rebuilding
until all are truly equal, man woman child
animal plant kingdom, queenland.

/larry goodell / placitas, nm

( Hope )

the above from NB 68

all from Foxhole Prayers, poems 2009 / larry goodell / placitas, new mexico
these are for Judy Grahn, Drum Hadley, Ann Quin, AND Gino Sky . . . .